Before jumping severed feet first into the world of true crime and serial killers with my podcast Killer Jobs, I was like a lot of people who were consuming it privately.  True crime was a guilty pleasure that I could devour only while hiding in the shadows.  Keeping my phone close to my body as I read up on Ed Gein, Jeffery Dahmer and BTK.  The life stories of each serial killer began to play like a song I had heard so many times before.  Knowing special details and reciting them with the host like a drunk man singing along to the chorus of a Bon Jovi song.  As many true crime do, I was always on the hunt for more and different information I hadn’t heard before.  That’s part of the reason I started a podcast, I wanted to be a unique source for serial killer information.

Studying true crime felt weird, wrong and insanely interesting to listen to stories about people who murder, because the idea of taking someone else’s life is so foreign and cruel that most people can’t conceive it.  We know it happens, but to have death as the end game is a different thought process entirely.  As proven by the recent popularity of true crime, learning about people who think so differently than common society is insanely fascinating.

That’s essentially what true crime is on the surface.   However, to me, studying true crime and serial killers especially is a look at monsters come to life.  Someone so evil and corrupt that the normal mind can’t travel to a similar location.  Like so many true crime fans, I grew up liking classic monsters, horror films and ghost stories.  Creature of the Black Lagoon being my favorite.  I heard a quote that the reason society in general is so fascinated and even consumed with serial killers is because they are real life versions of the monsters we grew up fearing.  Imagine if they caught the real Dracula, known for killing so many people as his means of survival and now you could watch about the real happenings of his life on television.  That would be incredible.  I think Dracula is a fitting example because many times, to serial killers, the need to kill or satisfy the sexual fetish they desire is life or death. 

The other reason these people are so mysterious is that what they did can not be comprehend in many minds.  I believe in general, people are good.  Sure, they may be a jerk at a store, but most people cannot conceive of the idea of going into a stranger’s house and sticking them with the knife so many times that they bleed to death, then taking there body to another location and use it for sex.  Maybe it’s just me, but I find that odd.

Most true crime fans share my inner feeling of interest, curiosity, disgust and excitement.  I’m sure many people can attest to the thrill of hearing a new true crime tale.  I can remember exactly where I was when I first heard Ed Gein’s full story and tried to wrap my head around the reality of what he had done.  It was in a Jack in the Box drive-thru and I was so enthralled in the story that I didn’t even notice they gave me regular fries instead of curly.  If that’s not evidence of the all consuming magic of true crime, then I don’t know what is.

I’ve always been drawn to serial killers specifically.  Not saying one-off true crime is less than in any way, but on the surface I can more realistically understand how someone could go crazy and murder once.  Usually, there is a clear path of events building to the singular crime and once the death of a relative or friend is over, the story is done.

However, serial killers are totally different.  They murder a lot, obviously.  The killing is just part of them.  Homicide is so crucial to a serial killer, that he or she is willing to risk everything in life, even their own freedom and safety to fulfill a craving only they understand.  Upon study of so many killers, the obvious conclusion that can be drawn is, there is something wrong with their brains.  You find that the kills are in order to get to something they want, be it revenge, misplaced release of rage, necrophilla, or a specific sexual fetish.

This breaks down easily into two brain categories being chemical and psychical.  Almost all serial killers have been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia, which is a mental disorder in which someone loses touch with reality.  That definition is pretty broad, but very on target.  Examples of this are quiet evident in people like Jeffery Dahmer who thought he could eat his victims to so they would remain with him after death.  In no part of my brain and the culture we live in believe that would be a logical conclusion one could draw in regards to consuming another person.

Nevertheless, serial killers become slightly less scary and even more interesting when you get the notion out of your mind that they are just evil people.  Yes, there are some cases of a serial killer having a normal life and no scientific evince to explain away the horrible things they do, but most times, it’s just a psychological issues stemming from a life of abuse.  Many serial killers grew up only receiving hate and not developing a need for love or reciprocal emotional support.  This obviously effects their world view and most times there was already a chemical imbalance in their brain which made it even easier to believe that killing would be enjoyable or an acceptable solution for a human after a sexual desire has been satisfied.

As for the serial killers who are not the product of some type of abuse or chemical imbalance in the brain, it is likely are thought to be the product of a psychical head injury or brain deformity.  There are so many killers who have famously had a head injury include John Wayne Gacy or Ted Bundy.  The science helps explain these causes for these behaviors but do little to make them less horrifying and interesting.

So interesting, as anyone obsessed with killers would tell you, that the urge to discuss the insanity of these individuals crimes’ is too great, so it eventually leaks out into any conversation that gives the slightest hint of suggestion.  Your friend might say, “I had a hot dog for lunch” and that could be a signal for your true crime mind to wedge in the fact that “Ed Kemper cut off his mother’s head and used it for oral sex.” Usually leaving the normal friend with little in the way of response.  “Oh that’s crazy” is a normal reaction when your friend wants to not talk about this subject anymore.

But, I am not that friend, I want to talk about all of this with you and my specific interests lay in how the serial killers fit into the real world that they had so obviously lost touch with.  This series will look at serial killer common traits, jobs and what they mean, relationships and so much more.  So, please check back as I will be updating this page with new entries often, eventually serving as the basis for a book about, you guessed Killer Jobs.

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